we're well into 2023 and i'm only writing about what happened last year now. great.

2022 has been... something. thing is, i don't even remember half of the things that happened last year which kinda just proved that my life was that boring. it wasn't a bad year or a good year overall. it was.. meh. that's it.

a close friend from uni days got married and it was the first wedding i was invited to (personally) in my 24 years of being alive. i had no one i could take so my sister merrily tagged along. thankfully some friends from uni also showed up so i had people to talk to during the actual wedding LOL. we did arrive late but the bride and groom were still up on the stage so we all got up to see her, take photos and stuff. for some of us, it had been since The Vid that we last saw each other so we kinda just sat in a small circle just chatting afterwards. it was a... satisfying day. in general. in some ways. hee hee. a couple days after the wedding i met up with two friends of mine who were in the same class during our first semester of uni and that was fun! that's all. it was just a very wholesome catch up between friends.

i took the trip because amy went to bali again! this trip became a milestone for me because it was the first (long distance) trip i went to without my parents and i went with a friend (and my sister but she was just more of a chaperone in place of my parents). i'm still somewhat surprised i pulled it off, talking about it to my parents, proposing the idea, coming up with an actual itinerary, booking plane tickets, hotels, renting motorbikes, all by ourselves. i kinda got the bug for it now, hey solo travelling is fun! of course by solo i mean without parents lol. one one day we went to get gelato and went to kuta beachwalk while waiting for the sunset. i think i have a bad luck with kuta and sunsets because of all the times i went to kuta specifically for the sunset i never got a clear view. the weather that day would always be cloudy and dark  

on the day we met amy we rented two motorbikes to head to ubud which was a 2h ride, we met up at a cozy lil part of ubud that was full of small cafes and restaurants. i dropped my friend off at her friend's house, sister saw me off with amy, she went off to a nearby cafe to do some work (or something, i don't remember). amy and i went to a small cafe and caught up with each others' lives and problems. i remember that i made the mistake of ordering a specific type of coffee which turned out too bitter for me but i tried with all that was left in me to finish the coffee to save face LOL. never ordering that again. by lunch we were walking around trying to find a place to eat in and we ended up finding a lil thai restaurant which worked out great for the both of us because amy is vegan and i don't eat pork nor drink alcohol. afterwards we headed to the cafe my sister was at because it happened to be closer to amy's hotel and my friend ended up meeting us at that cafe too.

it was so so so great to meet amy again, to talk with her about everything i haven't been able to tell her and to hear her endless stories about her life too. it reminded me of how different our lives are because even when we're the same age we're at different stages in life which isn't a bad thing! it just kinda put a perspective on other things, it mostly reminded me that the societal norms of the country i live in isn't all there is to my life. i can still do so many other things at 24. what the fuck am i rambling about lol moving on

well they're in shambles. arashi went on hiatus 2 years ago, sexyzone lost marius at the end of 2022 thus became a 4-member group. i was pretty much okay with marius leaving because he seemed like he was thriving and living his best life and i wholly support him! so much!! it's sad that sz won't be 5 anymore but they sent marius off the best way possible so it ended well for both sz and the fans. don't even get me started on king&prince, i still can't forgive how they went on a music show and revealed that ren would be a seiyuu in a doraemon movie and that very same night they dropped a damn nuclear bomb on all of us announcing the 3 of them would exit the group and the agency. look i'm all for them chasing their dreams and living the life they want but it's how the agency handled their departures and it's the fact that they weren't allowed to grow in an agency that should've listened and catered to a group that huge and successful. johnnys fumbled so fucking hard with king&prince and i will never forget their faces during the announcement video and their tears during their last performance which!! was on regular tv!!! and they didn't even get a farewell tour or shit!!!!!! yeah i'm angry. anyway. see that went on for a bit, the lesson here is to not ask me how i feel about kp's change from 5 to 2 members. ever.

and because i can't think of any other major event that happened last year--like i said, life was boring--i shall end the recap with food pics!!! enjoy. or not. i hope you get hungry looking at these. because i always do.

it's already august of 2023!

long story short, i got a job in jakarta at the start of the year and i gotta say living alone is so liberating. there are some stuff you only learn and experience when you live by yourself and so far i'm not hating it! i can't believe i've been here for like 6 months now time kinda flew by so ridiculously fast but now i'm faced with a decision i gotta make soon whether i want to keep living here or not. of course i do want to stay here for a while but as it stands there are some stuff at home i think i should attend to so i might have to move back home. but we'll see! i get at least another several months to be here so maybe things will change, or my mind will change, i don't know. point is, this period in my life has probably been the happiest i've ever been. even though now i gotta pay my own bills and rent, get my own food, grocery shop with my own money etc but that's all in the Living Alone package and if this is what i gotta go through to get the Ultimate Adulting Experience then so be it. i'm not complaining. it's about time i do shit by myself for myself, i'm about to be a year older real soon after all.

what the hell was i on about?

じゃまたー